The voices
Which reside in my
Mind
Call out; in harmony:
Their sopranos
Like thunderstorms
Trying to be as loud
As each other
While rinsing away
The last little
Part of my sanity
That was left
people look at me funny
when i tell them
'the cat did it'
because
i don't have a cat
but then i tell them
that
the 'cat'
lives inside my head
and he claws away
at my sanity
until i have nothing left
My mother thinks
I’m stupid
for wearing jeans
in summer
She thinks it’s
because I
don’t like my
pale legs
But she is
yet to
know the real
reason behind
My insisting on
wearing jeans
and hoodies in
July’s heat
For if she
saw my
thighs, laced with
faded scars
I don’t think
she’d trust
me with a
sharpener again
you say that you are fine
when there is a laptop screen
and two hundred miles between us
but it is then that i am absolutely terrified
that you are not fine at all
i don't matter i say
twiddling the blade in my hand
i don't matter i say
wincing as it pierces my skin
i don't matter i say
watching the blood seep into my clothes
i don't matter i say
feeling guilty over what i have done
i don't matter i say
placing the blade down
i don't matter i say
reaching for the pills
i don't matter i say
taking a handful
i don't matter i say
closing my eyes for the last time
i don't matter i said
before taking my own life
i don't matter i said
before people broke down over my death
but i don't matter
i lay awake at four am
thinking of you
the way you laugh
thinking of you
the way your smile lights up a room
thinking of you
the way your eyes change from grey to blue
thinking of you
how you love elvis
thinking of you
how you own so many cute dresses
thinking of you
how adorable you are
thinking of you
how your accent changes when you talk to me
thinking of you
how i love you with all of my heart
thinking of you
always,
thinking of you
The voices
Which reside in my
Mind
Call out; in harmony:
Their sopranos
Like thunderstorms
Trying to be as loud
As each other
While rinsing away
The last little
Part of my sanity
That was left
people look at me funny
when i tell them
'the cat did it'
because
i don't have a cat
but then i tell them
that
the 'cat'
lives inside my head
and he claws away
at my sanity
until i have nothing left
My mother thinks
I’m stupid
for wearing jeans
in summer
She thinks it’s
because I
don’t like my
pale legs
But she is
yet to
know the real
reason behind
My insisting on
wearing jeans
and hoodies in
July’s heat
For if she
saw my
thighs, laced with
faded scars
I don’t think
she’d trust
me with a
sharpener again
you say that you are fine
when there is a laptop screen
and two hundred miles between us
but it is then that i am absolutely terrified
that you are not fine at all
i don't matter i say
twiddling the blade in my hand
i don't matter i say
wincing as it pierces my skin
i don't matter i say
watching the blood seep into my clothes
i don't matter i say
feeling guilty over what i have done
i don't matter i say
placing the blade down
i don't matter i say
reaching for the pills
i don't matter i say
taking a handful
i don't matter i say
closing my eyes for the last time
i don't matter i said
before taking my own life
i don't matter i said
before people broke down over my death
but i don't matter
i lay awake at four am
thinking of you
the way you laugh
thinking of you
the way your smile lights up a room
thinking of you
the way your eyes change from grey to blue
thinking of you
how you love elvis
thinking of you
how you own so many cute dresses
thinking of you
how adorable you are
thinking of you
how your accent changes when you talk to me
thinking of you
how i love you with all of my heart
thinking of you
always,
thinking of you
I like to write,, I normally write sappy love stuff,, I wish very much that I could write sad things,, Because that's what's in my head,, But for now sappy will do
hi hello i haven't died
i apologise at the lack of activity recently, i've been concentrating on exams and starting my college work for next year
but, i have been good (ish) and i have been writing a bit, so expect to see quite a few new pieces over the next few weeks or so c:
sorry again, i'm hoping i'm going to be able to get back in the swing of things now i've finished all my exams and i've done a bit of my a2 work :--)
hollow
new poem coming up in a couple hours maybe??
after i've done a bit more graphics sketchbook work ((that's due in tomorrow cries))
but please note it was written at like ten at night so it might be awful
but it's an idea i've had going for a little while idk
so ya, see you in a bit idk